Anyway. I had to stop to get gas in the car. First of all - I thought I looked pretty cute yesterday. I was wearing my favorite black, almost-ankle-length skirt with a slit up the front to my knees. It was cold / windy / rainy out, so I had on leggings and black flats. I had a burgundy top with what looks like a lace insert at the neckline and 3/4 sleeves. And I'd tossed on a black hoodie when I left the house.
So anyway. I'm minding my own business, filling up the car, when Brunette Barbie toddled by. She was gorgeous & young & thin & wearing a skin tight black dress, black hose & stilettos so high she could barely walk. And every guy at the gas station was staring.
My first thought was "where the heck is she going at 4:30ish on a Thursday afternoon???" and "WTH? There aren't hookers this far north!" and then random evil thoughts went her way.
Then I looked down at myself as I put the gas cap back on my car.
And had an epiphany.
I totally looked dowdy. Instead of cute, I felt like a chubby, almost 40-year old hippie. But I really didn't think any more of it the rest of the evening, since no one is cute while bundled up against wind & rain at a high school football game! Until I got dressed this morning.
I tend to wear longer skirts because I'm lazy and can get away with wearing knee-highs instead of panty hose. I also have not worn a shirt tucked in since I got my Navy discharge. Comfort has been my style. Today I put on a mid-calf length flowered skirt and plain black t-shirt with a small detail around the neck. I am wearing shoes with 2 inch heels, tho. As I stood in front of the bathroom mirror. I almost cried. The word came to me. I looked ........matronly........
SOB!
I'm only 38! I don't want to look this way! I just hate shopping for clothes. I have to be in the mood to try stuff on - which I have to do since nothing is sized normally. Is it right for the mom of a 14 year old to even WANT to look cute? I know Randy doesn't care what I wear.
I think I need a make-over. And I need to become independently wealthy. Does anyone else feel this way??
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